My Adult Outlook

The other night as I sat on my computer surfing the net I ran into a dating site that caught my eye. This was not your average dating site, this site was definitely adult and it was pretty racy even by my standards. Still it was veryinterestinggoing over the profiles and pages and seeing how so many people were so free to share such intimate details about each other including intimate pictures. I spent about 3 hours that night on the dating site very enthralled by all of the stories that I was reading and wishing that I too had the same kind of life. Of course though my life is much different. I am not even dating anyone and when I do date I rarely have sex with the men that I am dating, I have once or twice had a brief encounter too but nothing like the ones that I was reading about online and it made me feel like I needed that kind of excitement in my life too.

So I went to bed with that thought and all of those pictures and stories in my mind and I had one crazy dream that night. I dreamt that I was in a room filled with candle light and that next to me was one of the gorgeous doctors that comes out on E.R. He was with me and we were talking then kissing then making love and doing so many things that I have never done in real life. It was probably the best dream that I have ever had in my life and when suddenly at 6 a.m. my alarm went off and I went from being in his arms to being in my cold bed I felt like my heart had been crushed. I tried in vain to close my eyes and regain my dream but it was lost forever.

That night when I got home from work I went back on the dating site and signed up for 6 months membership. Throughout the day I though about my dream and decided that it should not have to be a dream for me to have a great sex life. I am an adult and free to do with myself what I want so I decided to go for it and that night when I got my profile up I realized that my life will surely change for the best. I will now be a part of this exciting life style instead of just reading and dreaming about it.