My Adult Outlook

I lost my first love Tom in a tragic car accident two years ago, we were engaged to be married after dating for over 4 years and one day suddenly he was gone from my life forever. This experience traumatized me and it has taken me this long to even consider dating again. My family and friends who have supported me so strongly through this time are really stressing that I need to move forward with my life and so I am looking into some dating sites today. I can't even remember what it was like to date, I was with Tom for so long that I don't even remember when my last date was. It's going to be so strange to get to know other men and I am not really so sure that I want to but I promised that I was going to give it a try so I guess I will have to at least give it a shot and if I don't like it they said that I can quit at any time.

Of course the first of the dating sites that they want me to join is E Harmony.Every timethat one of theircommercialscomes on I can see my mom give my dad a look and I just knew that's where they would send me first. Well at least amongst dating sites it looks like a pretty good site, I have looked at quite a few of the dating sites out there today and some are too racy so this one at least looks like a steady place where I won't bump into too many weirdos. I just want to to really slow and with men that are serious and that are not looking for fun. I am not exactly the life of the party and I don't want anyone to expect that from me at least not right now.

It would be wonderful to find a partner that can bring that fun me back out. I used to love to laugh and I truly used to enjoy living life. so if I could find a man that wants the same things that really would be ideal, I have missed so many simple things like sharing the first cup of coffee in the morning next to my man and with the aroma of fresh baked rolls. I also miss going to bed at night next to him and telling him that I love him and hearing it back. I think I am really ready for this next step and I think it's time to start looking so I can get all that back.